Kid,
Just be glad you're not here yet to experience the ups and downs of this decision. It's funny, this all started out as a plan for me to have a baby, on my own. That's how much you were wanted baby girl, so much that I couldn't risk not getting you for the sake of maybe finding the perfect guy. I probably overlooked a lot of aspects regarding the best way to do this, one of the hardest during this pregnancy was bypassing my better judgment and trying to force a relationship with your Dad. You'll do this at times to baby, and despite this advice I think it'll be tough to avoid, but always remember your worth and don't stay with anyone that tries to devalue you.
I talked to your Dad last night, I had every intention of pushing forward with what I'm sure was a doomed relationship, but he's in no spot to even consider that suggestion. I hope that he hits rock bottom and gets his life together before it can have an impact on you, but I don't know how long of a process it's going to be. What we don't need is someone that is so wrapped up in a mess of their own making that they can't be there 100% for you. You are my priority little one, and I don't think it's best to bring a Dad into your life that has no room to do the same.
So pea, we're going to rely on the family we've got for now, and we'll find a guy down the road that can love you the way you deserve to be loved. Until then, I'll love you plenty for the both of us. Don't worry kid, we're going to be healthy and happy.
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